Something a little different but might sit with some.
Does my soul keep letting go, are the jolts at night reminding me we are not alone. Led there motionless then out of nowhere my chest explodes, am I astral projecting or is something else happening, am I falling asleep too quickly, is my body just restarting with a kick. These jumps aren’t minor, they run through me like they’re shouting. A million instant reasons too quickly inhale what’s needed, a two second feeling that my soul just tried to leave me, more than a little strange believe me. Woke up this morning so I’m still breathing.
When I was younger I use to dream that I was flying, I’d see myself leaving through the open window, felt the dips like riding the roller coaster, a very weird feeling, even stranger was the way I’d come home and settle down again like I was floating just above the bed sheets, happened many times but I never felt scared, excited more than anything. Love to feel that float again.
Later in life I’d lie there awake unable to move, no sounds I’d make, I’d try but the shouts couldn’t be heard. Felt like a wind travelling over me but I could swear I was still wide awake not sleeping.
Still unable to move but I’m sure I saw something else was there, rushing around, smaller than me, I’m sure there was about three. I’m really not sure if my mind played those tricks or a visit from something I didn’t understand I’d just witnessed. Maybe a ghost, maybe a demon or maybe just maybe a neighbour from a far away system.
I’m sure night terrors are much more than we truly know, these visits lasted years and sometimes still appear. The feeling you get is really powerful, can’t get up because this force won’t allow you. I don’t understand what the hell had been happening but believe me it’s much more than alarming.
Knowing what someone else is thinking, feeling, a sign I’m psychic or a paranoid beginning of the first stage of madness. Don’t let me make eye contact or you might give away secrets, I’m only joking but at times I’ve felt this. So if anyone has felt like this piece of writing let me know, be great to hear from you, write soon.
Before I go I hope you have a great Christmas and a fantastic New Year, may 2020 be a year to remember.
Ps don’t eat too much cake and thanks for reading Inside My Mind, My Darkest Journal
By L D Wright