No stopping life’s choices, mother nature gives and takes what she pleases. Lifes going along at a nice steady pace and then Boom your worlds all over the place.
Ups and downs, trouble enters with devastating consequences, rips at your heart, battles the soul, leaves you in pieces of shattered reflections that repeat with sharp savage reminders.
Adrenaline rushes towards the surface like demons screaming, floods every confused feeling, light fades as days become dark.
For a time the clock stops ticking, locked in your own personal prison of anger and pain, enough to drive your whole world slightly insane.
A feeling like you’ve become invisible whilst everyone still thinks you’re invincible, living with this mental image that’s surely a sign your dealing with an illness. Unable to talk, express yourself, You open your mouth but the words won’t come out.
Living with the ghosts that you can’t live without when letting go almost breaks you in half.
Searching for answers that just don’t seem to enter, lost in the darkness and squinting with lanterns.
Yesterdays past follows with scars to remember but the future is here, right there before you.
Look past the anger, confused emotions, the pain, the sadness. Look up and scan the skies, watch it play, leaving colours you’ll only see once.
Yes it’s going to get dark but what you’ve just witnessed will stay with your heart.
A smile that takes you back before this madness launched its attack. The great memories that hopefully stay for eternity. A new day, a new chapter but one the smiles walk right alongside you.
Time travelling through my memories, revisiting past events, living in the now but feeling the pain of yesterdays sad tones.
The horror and the sadness, the fear of the madness, deeply rooted times when my world broke into pieces.
Without the power to delete these images but carry on after each sad episode, developing tools to free myself, to work it out, to live without, to smile.
Creating better versions to deal with these situations into smaller, manageable portions, lessening the impact when life was less than perfect.
Searching deep into my memory, scanning for smiles, disgarding all the sadness that always brings me down.
Rising from the ashes of yesterdays misfortunes, settling on the sunsets of all your past upsets.
Igniting the journey that carried me forward to a point I hold on too, faced the fears, blew away storm clouds, traced it all back to a smile I once witnessed.
Just tricks that I use to help erase issues when underneath it all made so much difference.
Lee David Wright