My thoughts take me to places I’ve tried to forget, purposely misplaced memories but they keep taking me back. Trying to block out the sadness from entering until one mental image clicks on the darkness, Once again I’m reliving the madness.
I’ve tricks that I use to help ease these issues but sometimes they sneak right out of the shadows. They hold your emotions like your living it solo. Tackles your positives, breaks them too pieces, let’s you relive the saddest past footprints, brings the nightmares into daylight, plays tricks on your mind like a scarier version you’ve tried so hard to hide.
Half blind because life took away sight but the memories are clearer than yesterday’s fights. Positive attitude mixed with iron clad will and a response to the weakness that tries to break you.
The demands of your demons brutal interruptions drag you to a point you feel its mind bending confusion, relive the past like you travelled through time as the never ending cycles start to unwind.
Like a play you’ve watched over and over again but the ending still scares you, the reality hits home, it’s come back to visit and won’t leave you alone as you sit in the misery. This enemy pretending to hold onto your hand, then savagely prepares to battle with your heart, it grabs and it steals the smile from your day, replaced by tears you don’t want on your face, leaves your head tilted forward, questioning why. Reaches into the darkness, your many shadows of pain, its power drives you slowly insane.
Then out of the blue you see an old friend, acts of kindness that stayed deep in your mind, the demon seeks sorrow but the friend won’t let go. That memory you smiled whilst the sun warmed your soul, takes away sadness, the positive feelings bounce back and once again free from yesterday’s curse.
The thoughts become smiles that banish the nightmares, the sadness vanishes which silenced the madness and let loose of your heart strings. You don’t need a wardrobe of magical avenues to enter a realm that doesn’t quite fit you but a strong imagination of wonderful features that block out the demons of yesterdays feelings.
Lee David Wright