By, L D Wright
Take a look around, broken yet stood upright. Fixed in place but fragile. Become paper-thin has the brittle cracks break again.
Ups and downs when life throws your world around, mixes your emotions, confused thoughts and how to deal with it all.
Mind tearing as the heartstrings bleed and the fire ignites the life given scars.
Days roll into nightmares that keep coming to visit, they stay in your head space allowing you to re-live your saddest ordeal.
Darkness falls around your bright coloured dreams, takes away smiles, breaking everything.
Squashing the breath you so long too breath, squeezing as its hold takes you in.
Lost with nowhere to turn, wishing the life you smiled would return.
Anger as the feelings rise, taking control, your days become dark. Ever lasting uncomfortable aches flow through grieving sorrowful veins.
Pain becomes part of your daily routine, seconds of peace scattered as the memories come and shatter your dreams.
Endless turmoil, broken sleep but still manage to think about good times that now mean the world to me.
Grabbing hold of sun drenched thoughts, happiness before the darkness broke.
Separating sadness, holding onto smiles, breaking all the barriers that keep bringing me down.
Standing at the ledge, a balancing act, one foot over whilst the other holds you back.
Forgetting the dates so your mind doesn’t sink back to the darkness and takes you all the way back again.
Praying for sun covered days, smiles and laughter like they used to be.
Breaking rules that kept you in chains just to forget the journeys you hate.
Strong ability and a mind forged with positive actions, having the guts to walk right along side them.
One day at a time, taking it all in and one day emptying the demons etched upon your skin.
The lessons learnt how to cope and carry on becoming the you, you once was.
No one feels the pain, sees the mental thoughts, they imagine but don’t come anywhere close, I’d rather that than feel like this, my pain, anguish and issues, last two decades tears.
Life’s savage reminders so I’m glad they don’t see and I manage to hide it deep within me.
I’m still smiling, inside I still cry, I’m strong to the eye, inside I’m broke but I’m holding my head high.
I keep moving forward, it’s the only route I’ve chosen.
Some days better, some days great but mixed with the sadness that brings me the pain.
The past and how it plays with your future like its invented everlasting forms of mind bending torture.
Thoughts and how you deal with them like being in heaven and then sent down to hell.
No wonder Lucifer is one angry demon, a fallen Angel probably lived life and felt some of my issues and battled in dark tones that live with our fears.
Lee David Wright