Tears stain a perfect memory, they steal smiles born of forgotten yesterday’s. Ones of unconditional love lost amongst those perfect thoughts. Wrapped around you like much needed hugs, Holding them tightly for fear they’ll simply fade into fog. The love you carry deep within your heart only hurts just before the tears start. Loss isn’t letting go or forgotting but remembering where you’ve been, what you’ve seen, It’s the memories we’ve learnt to walk between. Many times I’ll think about you, I truly wish you were still with us, you’ve left a huge amount of treasured memories wrapped around my heartstrings. Today I look towards the heavens and wish you “Happy Birthday Dad”. Miss you more than I ever realised. May I Stare across the starry night and find the brightest star of all, if only for a second, maybe three I’ll find you staring back at me…
Happy Easter everybody, today we would be visiting the family, watching the kids gleam upon their Easter eggs, endless smiles until that one egg too many got the better of them. Adults alike, we are all victims of over indulging when chocolate is concerned, well I am. The Easter bunny definitely called to our home, our two year old grand daughter collected a bountiful amount of goodies on her way downstairs and enjoyed her little adventure. Even with this horrendous lock down we still managed to video call with family so even being forced apart we still managed to see those smiling faces. Times like this we all need that connection, I suppose it’s the only way to beat this social distancing and keep those around us safe. Our family like many others have downloaded apps like WhatsApp and Zoom, created groups we can all congregate, keep in touch and most importantly keep ourselves from completely going insane. If you haven’t downloaded these apps yet please do so. It’s a much needed lifeline.
So the roasts are slowly cooking for later, the chocolate is temptingly close to being unwrapped before 12am and well I hope this is the case for everyone out there, religion or just annual tradition of indulgence, whatever your reason. Remember chocolate as major magic properties (wink, wink) if nothing else it will put a smile on your face and lets face it, we all need as many smiles as possible right now. Happy Easter everybody and keep smiling.
I looked to the news today for inspiration, all I received were warnings to stay within the perimeters. Don’t go out, stay two metres apart, stay home. Don’t venture outside unless you really need to. Today the entire world could be sneezing. As a child I remember singing Ring‐a‐Ring o’ Roses, today this threat definitely poses has they all start falling. Frightening times of 2020, this invisible threat keeps the entire planet locked behind closed doors of our personal quarantined confined spaces. From Smallpox to Black death to Cholera and Yellow fever, Influenza, HIV, Sars, Ebola, Mers and now Covid-19 the entire human race up against the wall once again, it’s frightening. Are we all lined up facing a diseased drenched firing squad as the bullets spread towards each and every one of us. No known cure, no antidote even world leaders, future kings may fall victim. It is a crazy, scary place out there right now yet I still see the ones prepared to spread these germs, flaunting warnings, walking around like their all on holiday, chatting in groups without the distance, why do they think they’re so different and this disease will have the manners to politely walk around them. The world right now is facing the fight of all fights, didn’t take a bullet yet we all might fall. An unseen enemy of each and every border, world war 3 isn’t fought with bombs but germs and now they’ve spread around the entire planet.We’re all part of this battle, please keep safe.
L D Wright
“A new meaning to the term, 3’s a crowd”
I’d just like to say to everyone out there. Keep safe and may we all get through this crazy scary time.
I’ve just ventured out for some necessities. Recently I’ve only travelled to work and back other than calling at my dads just to check in.
Today at the local supermarket I was met with mobs of people eager to fill up their baskets, I was only there for flowers, last minute and all that. I was shocked to see all the empty shelves like the nightstaff had either forgotten their rolls or just hadn’t turned in for their shifts. By the look of things the world seems to have devoured any and all signs of pasta.
This is what I imagined life during a war. Empty shelves, extremely quiet roads and apart from necessary journeys having to stay home like we’re all under some sort of curfew as well as being rationed due to the hoarders of stomachs more important.
I hope you all get through this unscathed and those closest to you are not infected by this invisible threat.
My first concern was to look into flu outbreaks and global deaths, frankly flu outweighs the current pandemic by an absolute massive amount. I’m really concerned for those infected, for the millions with underlying health issues and I can’t stress enough that I hope this comes and goes without causing any distress directly to yourselves.
That being said I do truly believe with the sudden change, the brakes being firmly applied to the cogs of our society, life will for some time be definitely harder.
This will I hope eventually bring us all a little closer, I think we will hate the seclusion, the safe distance we are being warned about. Our hands after gallons of purification will need holding.
Keep safe and the very best of luck in the coming months.
Happy Mothers Day to all those in self isolation.
Corona virus is a deadly missile, it’s propulsion as spread its entrails throughout the world. Countless countries will fail in the coming months as reality strikes fear throughout our lands, A pandemic of global suffering not only for the infected but each and every one of us.
Steel to Me,
In it’s molten and hardened state it’s both fierce and extremely demanding.
Almost volcanic, poured from the furnace of man made eruptions, a liquid cauldron of iron & carbon.
Forged , formidable strength that cools colder than ice between the forced grip of each hand.
This powerful tensile will stop bullets, create an armoured clad fortress.
To me steel is the deafening noise that resists.
It’s a harsh environment, work guarantees your muscles are aching to a point your body feels like breaking.
It argues, it’s visious and never gives in. It’s dragged kicking and screaming to a point you take your first trim.
It’s a beast of an animal that wants to attack, it hasn’t got teeth yet still wants to bite.
It slices, it cuts, it’s powerful & dangerous, it demands total respect or prepares to maim even destroy you.
I suppose steel is the bedlam of a steel operator not the sleek shiny lustre you’ve all become accustomed.
“Welcome to my World, it’s brutal”
L D Wright
“Not all men of Steel wear capes over skinsuits”
Life’s a Rock & Roll album, it’s a tribute you wrote, produced & directed. Fragments of monsters & demons living amongst sunshine & daydreams.
It’s filled with chords you try to forget but mixed with times that stick, the ones that remind you this roller-coaster keeps moving forward, not your typical one hit wonder.
The ballads, the epic anthems, the crowds of mental screams and those of delightful laughter that lifted your spirit more than any adventure.
The thunderous solo’s when nothing else mattered, it simply clicked and just kept moving forward.
The riffs that turned into memories, instantly soared straight through your heartstrings, the beats pumped through your veins, times you felt more than alive.
The lines that stopped you dead in your tracks, the ones you revisit time and time again.
The many titles you give and take, the number one hits you didn’t make.
The tattooed jacket that kept you warm, the scruffy cool look like a pure rock star.
The highs, the lows, the ones that flowed, the ones that hid, the ones you wished you had left well alone.
The A and B sides of life on the flip, the wish that it was as easy as changing the god damn track.
Your favourites, the ones that make you tick, that beat and how you flowed into it, one second a foot, the next your entire body starts moving. It’s your album so bounce like nothing else matters, they’re your lyrics, nobody else’s.
Let the words become the feet that you dance with. Listen to the tribute acts but remember there’s only one of you, the original album you lived with.
Turn the volume up, feel it, pause, rewind, repeat, walk amongst the tunes like you own it.
Change the tempo, mix it up, let your soul jump. Free the words you hold deep inside, let your heart speak as you write your next line.
L D Wright
My take on Depression…..
I’ve lost my way once, twice, honestly more times than I care to remember, probably on a par with the times I’ve almost lost my temper. I’ve revisited past memories, ripped open old scars I should have forgotten before life became pain I draped, dragged around.
I became trapped amongst the past, lived amidst my ghosts I couldn’t put to rest.
Rattled bones I should have let sleep, said my goodbyes without releasing my grip.
This grief wrapped itself silently, tightly around me, it didn’t leave but became the demon that stalked me. How do I deal with loss I felt with my soul, wrenched like it was my time to go.
Did I hide my true feelings, covered them in smiles. Do I only see the foggy remnants now I’m almost half blind. Did my past chip away piece upon piece until the cracks blatantly showered ones broken dreams.
Now it’s too hard to hide, true tears replace the fake highs. You can’t read a book until you’ve turned the last page but its surprising what you hide behind the doors of your gaze. Did my eyes give me away, did you hear me sob behind the noise that I’d made, did I not light up when night became dawn, did i seek shadows the sun couldn’t find.
Did my poker face finally reveal cards close to my chest or the words I’d wrote shout louder than voice. Did you feel my battles I’d wrestled and fought. Am I still the hero now I’m battered and bruised, does courage now resemble the cape that I’ve used …….
Everybody needs time to recharge. Pity it took two decades & counting for mine.
Lee David Wright
a little love into every single day if only to paint a smile upon their face. Find time to actually make a difference, it’s not that hard, could be as simple as saying hello to a perfect stranger,calling a friend you haven’t seen in ages.
Take a step back and put your week in order, make time for those that need you. If you have that person who always knows before anyone, be them.
Sit down with thought, dial their number say “hello” Be the hands that reached out so many times, be that friend you thought you’d never find, lifes a two way street, visit it. Be thankful the last time you tripped, who’s help and guidance steadied, didn’t quit.
Learn from past mistakes, we all get things wrong, give and take. Were we forgiven or brought to our knees, life’s not about how much we bleed.
Forgiveness is a powerful attribute, filled with love, hope and astonishment. They didn’t judge, they sent their love with hugs attached that wrapped around your heartstrings.
Be that person who stood by our side, didn’t turn away but turned the other cheek instead. Listened through all the shouts and screams, cried alone to save your feelings.
The battles you would have lost without them, the victory not the victim. Be an open door not a barrier, be a road map, a beakon not lost in the middle of a forgotten memory. Be the key that unlocks their hearts, let them breath your love.
Be the calming influence not the fan to rage the flame. Become the hero we grew to believe in, we all possess the ability. Be the one we count on, who always rolls even when the odds are against them.
Lifes avenues, roundabouts, dead ends and breakdowns, be that road that just keeps going with friendly stops you love to visit. Become the road trip you became lost yet found yourself smiling, life’s about the journey we’re all part of.
Look back on memories like postcatds from the past, find the smiles. It’s all about the amazing adventures our footsteps shared.
I’m more than grateful I’ve made so many with you.
Lee David Wright
Was a year I don’t ever want to visit ever again, most of it was one I felt like my walls were closing in on me. I’d awoken so many demons that what had come and gone quickly spiralled around me and almost dragged me into the whirlwind of depression, sad memories, thoughts. These thoughts weren’t normal nor welcoming yet they had silently sneaked into my dailies. Before I knew any different my thoughts had me in self destruct mode, a dangerous place that rarely takes prisoners willing to claw back out. It’s a scarey place that covers you like stepping into a puddle only to realise you have just fell into a much deeper, darker depth. It’s about now you better start praying because your going to need all the strength you can muster.
Last year I made so many stupid mistakes, gave things I enjoy a wide birth, even tested my most personal of relationships to a point I almost became single. Depression, stupidity is by no way a good mix, if those two words where served up on a menu then believe me I’m not eating from that restaurant ever again,
I’ve had my fill. From now on I’m eating a more invigorating ingredient. The recipe filling mixed with love, trust, honesty, quality talking, meaningful mindfulness, respect, yes I think that will be my favourite dish. I’ve had my full share of the doom and gloom I’d scoffed down so I’m detoxifying and going forward with a new positive attitude.
I’ve had my fill of physical pain, yes that hurt but it also fades but the psychological pain that stays, becomes lodged, hard to forget what comes from the heart, well it’s about time I put those feelings to bed, I’ll never truly forget my loss, battles, feelings but I’m about to just let them go. I’ve become sick of letting them allow me to feel guilty, bad thoughts, Sadness , downhearted. It’s out of my control and I’m unable to change any outcome that came, what happened however painful, sorrowful, wherever it took me, tried to drag me, end me. I’m on a new direction away from that dark side I’d spent so much time with.
Yes I’d give anything to still have my children, Katie, Brandon and Kirsty I will always miss you, I will always want you to be near me physically but that wasn’t to be and I’m not ready to join you just yet. I will one day hold your hands again but I will always feel that love.♥️ True love lasts forever, a fathers love for his children can never die so a little bit of you will travel with me every day of my life.
So 2019 even though I don’t want to revisit you again I have to say thank you for the reality check, the reminder, the warning signs. Thanks for the slap in the face, God knows I needed it.
My past didn’t really start getting addressed correctly until last year so finally my mask has now been taken off, scrunched up and thrown directly into the rubbish bin.
There is one person who I dragged through my turmoil, who didn’t get off my roller coaster and stuck with me through thick and thin. She deserves a medal for actually having the guts and the love to stay with me, Angela, Thank You for doing so and for riding out this storm I rained down from aswell as still having the strength to be a mum, nana, friend and student aswell as running a cafe. I’m proud of your ability to go back to study and now look at you, studying at a Masters degree level. PMA all the way. Believe me, You’ve got this.
I’m actually feeling a lot more relaxed and it’s only February so making my way towards therapy definitely has worked wonders, early days but more importantly definitely more positive, stronger and my smile, the true one is finally coming back. Ok so the aches and pains of a 49 year old steel worker may not subside so easily but I’ll still be wrestling with my alarm at 6.30am, getting my butt out of bed and making my way to work but that’s just life.
I still have those who care and show me love,
I still have my interests and I can still write my blog which as been a great escape or atleast a realisation that i needed help in the first place so thanks for the follows and likes so far, comments about my writing are always welcome and if I can ever help in whatever way possible then let me know.
So a little late but, “Happy New Year” May all your new journeys find you smiling or atleast find a positive energy to deal with anything.
So 2019 I’ve put a line under you, the future well let’s see, the outlook is definitely brighter.
Lee David Wright
My best advice is be true to those around you. Follow your heart and listen, Listen a LOT
IF it all becomes hard, talk, ask for help, seek advice, make an appointment. Whatever happened does not have the right to dictate how you now feel or live. Remember you are not alone. May old open scars now start healing.
“So this post apparently is my nerdy geek side, that said it is a huge interest of mine and I’m more than sure there are many others who share my thoughts”.
In a very distant galaxy so far away fast radio bursts are repeatedly now being picked up here on earth. Cycles are emerging from these FRBs where they repeat, some recent findings astonishingly every 16 days to be precise.
Is this a distant hello, we are here. Are we now at a point in time that we will configure and decode these “WoW” signals. I wonder if these messages from another world can be deciphered and actually listened to. What are the messages actually saying to us?
Are they a warning, an S.O.S sent out to engage with distant worlds. If anyone’s got a very fast taxi strapped to a spare space shuttle able to travel way faster than light speed then can i jump on board and hitch a ride towards these coordinates because I’m sure once there we will actually come face to face with civilizations way more advanced than our own. I suppose if they are so far into their own future then it should be their job to visit us,or maybe they already have and we just need to be told the truth.
Come on guys, I think our world needs an headline,
“We come in Peace” statement.
These are two of the FRBs recently received, recorded and now causing excitement worldwide.
180916.J0158+65 on the outskirts of a spiral galaxy 500 million light-years away.
FRB 180924 DES J214425.25-405400.814
If I’m being honest I truly believe we have been visited many times by more than one off world civilizations.
I also believe they are peaceful, after all would we still be here if they weren’t. Their advancements in weaponry would be far superior and definitely outweigh that of our making. Maybe they should disarm the entire world just to be on the safe side.
I’d love a time machine right about now.
A Flux Capacitor needed oh and maybe an updated DeLorean with Bluetooth capability 😂 well what’s an adventure so enormous going to be without music. Anyway it’s my story so I’ll get there anyway I possibly can. Imagine tuning into that frequency and stopping on the doorstep of something not one person has even been so fortunate to witness. Calling Occupants, even The Carpenters wanted to make contact with Interplanetary crafts. From Roswell, New Mexico, July 8th 1947 that made front page news to the Rendlesham Forest incident (December 1980) Even President Eisenhower apparently met and talked to real life Aliens on more than one occasion. Yes, you read that correctly. (in 1954, Eisenhower ET Meeting at Edwards AFB). I didn’t just make that up, check some sources, all sorts of theories are out there, some of the witness’s statements have got to be real I’d say.
Majestic 12, Project Bluebook, masses of others, conspiracies, cover ups, governments definitely know more than we’ll ever truly know. Personally I think they would have to land their Ships in full view for the whole world to see and then stick two fingers up at anyone who stated it was a global pandemic of mass hallucination. They say the truth is out there, all we have to do is actually find it.
I myself have seen a glowing ball shaped craft of unknown origin. Statements during wars saw pilots viewing simular sightings. I was making my way home, walking alongside the canal towpath. I saw this bright light, firstly thinking it was the sun but i noticed this was moving fairly quickly through the clouds. I watched it for maybe 30 seconds before it just dissappeared from view. I did try taking a picture but i couldn’t make anything unusual from the photo other than clouds. I’m not really sure what it was i saw that day. It did not interact with me in any way, I didn’t find myself unable to move nor did i float into a beam of light, see any little green beings but I did see that large light moving through the sky. I have seen other objects that i could not explain
News stories like The Great North East Blackout, The battle of Los Angeles (1942) Hickam Field Hawaii (1952)
It was in this year American fighter pilots were told to fire upon any unidentified flying object, this order apparently ended 1953-54.
The stories are world wide, witness testimonies, video recordings, watch video evidence, photographs and witness statements Hessdalen NTNU, the Norwegian University of Science and Technology. The list dare you follow it is endless. If you have a story of your own then please share it in the comments section. We are definitely not alone, I’m certain our governments would rather we believe we were but from the vastness of space hand on heart we can not be the only species. We are definitely being steered away from the truth but I will put this on my bucket list, one day I want to speak to an Alien, E.T, being from another world. Would this post change the lives of every human on earth, No, not in the slightest, well maybe slightly but if it was to occur would it change history, minds, everything from leadership, religion, beliefs of course it would. Do we need that to happen, I say “Yes” most certainly. Ok I don’t want an alien invasion like that of films, War of the Worlds or the original idea from H. G Wells novel of the same name, I don’t want a hush cover up like that of E.T where the world scares them half to death and they rush to leave but one day I’d love to see crafts, beings on every news channel stating, “They’re Here”. A friendly meeting of worlds that change ours and their lives forever. Life would never be the same and who knows it might be that I can hitch that ride without having to steal a space shuttle or invent my own personal time machine. I think it’s about time we get to know our distant neighbours, except we are all still learning about life, existence and how reality is so much more than we truly know or believe.
Lee David Wright
“We come in Peace.”
Now im on a roll, i wrote a little last week around the same subject but a totally different story. Here goes……
I looked to the skies
I looked to the skies…..
I looked to the skies, was that a gap in the clouds or did a crack just appear allowing what looks like space to fall inward . As I squinted my view I swear something just moved, peering down from this mysterious world.
The more that I scanned the more that it moved until what looked like a crowd seemed to appear from the clouds of this heavenly world, had I become the canvas in a gallery window, what the hell was actually occurring.
I looked at them whatever they were, God’s maybe angels from far away worlds. Or was I witnessing an Aliens first contact, was I the first human to witness this vision or had they always been watching, we just had not seen them.
Was that gap getting larger or closer to me, I wasn’t 100% sure what my eyes now started to see. Was this a portal to a world in the stars, or some sort of alien cloaking device, had they flown down from heaven or travelled billions of miles.
So minutes had passed, I wasn’t a threat, they hadn’t silenced my voice, no weapons, no noise. Was this a sign of the peace that would follow. This gap had now certainly hollowed. All of a sudden I lifted into the air, something was pulling, now I’m floating in mid-air. I didn’t feel panic, I wasn’t even scared, I could feel a presence of calm was definitely near. A voice filled my head, a kind exceptance drifting whilst holding my hand.
We come in peace, we mean you no harm. Just say the words and we’ll let you back down. I wanted to know why they’d chosen me so I asked if I could possibly stay. I felt no real reason to leave.
Grey faces and large dark piercing eyes, I heard their words but they had no mouths. One of them raised their hand to my face, I felt their thoughts like words in my brain. These beings definitely not of our lands, why Me out of the entire world. All of a sudden I saw a familiar face, this is you, be that in another universe. Then thousands of images of identical me’s flooded a speechless Lee.
We have looked at you so many times, we heard you ask for answers, you often thought of us visiting. We knew in our hearts what you searched was sincere. Out of the thousands of you spread so far and wide throughout the cosmos, even beyond your search for answers stood out so loud.
What happened next totally blew me away, every memory, I mean every single second raced through my veins. Looked like I was revisiting my life, was I being brainwashed, had they took over my mind, isn’t this the feelings just before you die. I could still remember, I still felt so calm. Why have you just allowed my past to rush home, we just recorded every single event, we needed to check, don’t worry, we only wanted to look. That was your life but it’s not finished yet.
Suddenly its hand touched my head yet again, our turn to show you what you truly want to know. We come from a galaxy so far from yours but we travel through time like you look through windows. We see what we need and travel through thoughts. We reached you in seconds, like a memory recall. We don’t use engines, those primative ships. The mind is a powerful tool if you learn how to channel it. I can feel you I said, how can a thought be so real.
You don’t possess the gifts that we use but strangely your already communicating using your mind.
What I’m about to tell you will probably put you in shock but please understand I promise & We mean you no harm. I felt a comforting reassurance, like a trusted friend in the distance.
I’ve yet to introduce myself, out of the thousands of you you’ve now come to realise, well there’s one from the very beginning, let’s say the original. I’m You, the very first version. I’ve come back to help with a mission, would you like to come with us.
Cancel that taxi, I’ve got a ride
Lee David Wright